(9/9) Learning to Walk on Water

This brings us to this Lenten season.  As Lent was approaching I was tossing around the same ideas of social media or chocolate.  Nothing really sounded like I was doing it for God. They felt arbitrary. I wanted this Lenten season to be a journey even deeper into my faith.  While listening to a priest talk about this topic he admitted his tendencies to distract himself by having a TV show on in the background.  He might as well have been talking directly to me. There was my answer.  

So I did it. 

I removed the noise used to distract and replace it with readings and reflections from the Bible.  I have been following the Hallow Pray 40 series that follows the central theme of surrender. The repetitive phrase “Jesus, I surrender myself to you. Take care of everything” is said at the end of every session. I also repeat it multiple times in a day.  I have learned how to allow His will by adding “not by my will but by yours” at the end of every prayer.  I began a bible study with fellow moms to learn how to live my life for Jesus through the trials of motherhood.  And when I tried to think of what brought me to this place it was not one thing. It was a series.  God had been calling me for a long time I just wasn’t listening.  He was responding to me. I am so incredibly grateful for the ways He left the 99 to come after me.  I do not know what will happen the next time I am hit with a wave of depression or the trials ahead. But I do know now that focusing on those trials is taking my eyes off Jesus in this storm.

What you’ve read up to this point is the first part of my journey with Jesus. It was equivalent to Peter’s first step out of the boat. I stepped out in faith onto the water.

If you’ve read this far I invite you to follow along as I blog the rest of my journey learning to walk on water.